WARNING! > boring post. < WARNING!

Hey Connor! Hope your week is going well.

OK, WHAT is UP with the PRESIDENTIAL DEBATES?! 

I haven't watched all of the debates so far, but what i have seen has been just embarrassing. It seems like neither Romney, nor Obama have a firm grasp on what they are even talking about. When they are making sense, Romney is the one who seems like he knows what he's talking about (not that i agree with everything he is saying) and Obama can barely make a rebuttal! So i have my choice between a candidate who I don't agree with on the vast majority of his views, but can at least verbalize his plans, and another who i want to vote for, if only he could keep a sentence going without a 10 second pause between every freakin word! (that's an exaggeration, but you get my point). 

UGH.

politics aggravate me.

Who are you going to vote for? I need some help deciding. Washington State votes in November, i think.

GEEZ, has it only been a little over a year since i moved? It feels like it's been so much longer, honestly. 

How much do you think you have changed since we graduated?

Like, SERIOUSLY, this is a serious question. I feel like so much has happened since i started college up here. When i think back to who i was a year and a couple months ago, its hard to believe who i was and who i am now. I mean that in a lot of ways.

It's hard enough to think that in just 3-4 years we'll both have our bachelors and probably be working full time or doing any other degree of other things. Are you planning to go for a masters right after graduating, or are you going to take a break and find some solid, well paying work?

I know I'm really lucky to be where i am now, being so close to my college, having a program that lets me do the first 2 years of my degree at community college SUPER CHEAP and then transfer to a 4-year university. I can't help missing my brother and sister though. I guess i thought my family would always be close to each other, but half of us ended up on the opposite side of the country! It's not like I'm worried about them or anything. They're doing really good in fact! Johnny just had his first kid with his wife, and Maggie is really happy where she and her family are at the moment. 

Maybe I'm just...anxious. It's like, well, this move was going to be my chance to have a say in how my life is going to go from this point on. From before that point, I had never really felt like i had the choice of what i would be doing in the grand scheme of things. Now that i am slowly moving away from having to rely on my parents, it feels like, at any moment, something could go wrong. I'm not going to have my parents to fall back on forever.

I just get all of these crazy thoughts of how something could happen that would leave me in some kind of terrible situation, and no one would be there to help me get back on my feet. Sometimes it feels like I've been uprooted, and everyone that i want to be close to me is really far away. I've made lots of friends here, but we all live in different cities, so i don't really get to hang out with people a lot.

I feel like I'm missing that drive that everyone should have. That thing that pushes you to get out on your own and start your own life. I kinda feel like I'm floundering, which makes it seem like everyone around me is moving ahead on their own. I don't even have a job yet! You work in the library at your college right? If i want a job inside my college, then I'm going to have to wait another year, since EvCC only hires annually.

IT'S NOT ALL BAD THOUGH! 

SERIOUSLY! 

I'M NOT GONNA BECOME A HOBO!

I PROMISE!

It just feels like so much has changed and is changing and will change in just a few short years. Its a lot to take in sometimes. 

Let's see, how will i end this post? hmmm...PBS IDEA CHANNEL. This is an awesome YouTube channel. Love the questions this guy comes up with.

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU IN 3 MONTHS! 

AAAAAHHHHHHHH!